Leaving...sobs

I'm leaving to UK today...all the best to all my dear friends in Msia...I'm going to miss you all. Most of all, I'll miss my family....*sobs*

My grandma says I'm as lembik as a tauhu.......(T_T)

I'm old....

Help me (T_T)...I'm getting old! I played badminton on Saturday morning and until today my body still aches badly from it. Hand pain la...leg pain la...back ache la...butt also pain! Aiyoh...am I getting old or what? My grandma says that I'm worse than an old lady. Every move I make also say "OUCH!"...haha. *laughs at myself*

But I'm only 19 going on 20....still young........very young indeed=)

Purify my heart

Today I learned a very good lesson in church. Each and everyone of us have a past, some good and some bad. Some of us can't seem to forget the past and move on. Some of us have a bad past which we hide from the world, from our friends, from our parents, those who love us so much. We are so afraid to disappoint them...so afraid that we will hurt them.

I've messed up so badly that most of you don't even know it. Through the time when I messed up I turned away from the world because I was so afraid of people asking me questions and questions and questions I do not know how to answer. It was the worst time of my life. But you know what, it is when we do not tell people that we are most vulnerable. We try to hide everything so well that it actually eats us up inside. Do not let the thought that, your friends will dislike you for what you have done, consume you. True friends will accept you as a whole, even in your mistakes.

I earnestly pray to God that I will not repeat my mistakes and that I will not be bound by my past. I thank 'you' for accepting me in spite of my messed up past. It's so true that God's love does not rise and fall with performance. He loves us unconditionally. This is my prayer...

Purify my heart
Let me be as gold and precious silver
Purify my heart
Let me be as gold, pure gold

Purify my heart
cleanse me from within
and make me holy
Purify my heart
cleanse me from my sin, deep within

Refiner's fire
My heart's one desire
Is to be holy
Set apart for you Lord
I choose to be holy
Set apart for You my Master
Ready to do Your will

Enjoy=)

I think black's still the safest. sorry i'm not very good with blogs...i will try to make it as colourful though=) enjoy reading=)